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Edit #1

Jericho(?) (edit #1)

Wall to wall is filled with pictures
Of everything I've ever known
Black and white, the room is spinning
Recordings play in monotone
Slowly these things lose their meaning
And all I've valued looks like trash
The times I've spent my life on nothing
Trading conscience for cash
A glimmer in a darkened room
Reveals a bright and shining cross
Which lay there, buried, for an age
I feel a searing sense of loss

Dear God are you still up there listening?
Do you remember who I am?
Can you still see me through my sin
Can I still run to you again?
Break down these walls of Jericho
God, I want to see your face again
Take these pictures and all I've wanted
I give my life into your hands

Dear God these walls refuse to crack
And I don't want to be alone
Will I be left here? Will these walls break?
Or won't you, God, just take me home?

Break down these walls of Jericho
God, I want to see your face again
Take all my idols and all I've valued
I give my life into your hands

People laugh scorningly at this longing
And at times ignorance seems like bliss
But, God to follow you always
Means to throw all pride away like this
And dear God the World is just so tainted
At times the grey appears to be white
But though temptation seems so strong
God give me strength to put up a fight

Break down these walls of Jericho
God I want to see your face again
Take my dreams and all that I've planned
I give my life into your hands

And another one...

Yes, this was another one of those strange times when a words and a tune suddenly pop into my head and want to be written down on paper. In this case, I was in the middle of GP class. (Oops). Anyways, I wouldn't have gotten it out of my head any other way. I'm not sure if it's any good. If it isn't and I realise it in a couple of days, you'll probably find this entry deleted. Either way it isn't finished so I'll have to come back to edit it.

It's supposed to be a song (at least that's the way I heard it). Not sure of the title yet though. Hope whoever still reads/stumbles across this blog likes it.

Jericho(?)

Wall to wall is filled with pictures
Of everything I've ever known
Black and white, the room is spinning
Recordings play in monotone
Slowly these things lose their meaning
And all I've valued looks like trash
The times I've spent my life on nothing
Trading conscience for cash
A glimmer in a darkened room
Reveals a bright and shining cross
Which lay there, buried, for an age
I feel a searing sense of loss

Dear God are you still up there listening?
Do you remember who I am?
Can you still see me through my sin
Can I still run to you again?
Break down these walls of Jericho
God, I want to see your face again
Take these pictures and all I've wanted
I give my life into your hands

Dear God these walls refuse to crack
And I don't want to be alone
Will I be left here? Will these walls break?
Or won't you, God, just take me home?

Ne Tezuka...

From Go-Quiz.com

=smiles innocently= play with fire? who me? nah.... =takes out lighter= ^_^" (by the way I think it's other people's safety that they're referring to)

Ah damn. I've not really been enjoying choir that much the previous month.

Perhaps due to stress or something.

But I can tell you that at the last choir session, I finally felt it again.

That that's the CCA I've chosen, and that that's the place where I belong; where I was truly happy.

I really don't know what the future holds for me in terms of my CCA. But I'm hanging on anyways.

Next year, and in the university, I don't know what will happen truthfully. I want to take up tennis and play squash again.

If I end up in NUS, I want to join the anime club just because that's where my closest friends will be. The ones I made in MGS and the closest friends I made in ACJC. It'll be another Spectra.

I don't want to not join the choir alumni (yes I'm thinking very far ahead I know) but it's a huge commitment. And I mean commitment. What with the gang wanting to try out cosfest next year altogether for once, I can't have it coinciding with choir because once I've made that commitment, choir comes first.

God knows how many times I couldn't go out with my friends because of choir and work and CWC and spectra.

I don't want this to be the catalyst for us growing apart, just like what happened to the friends I had in Primary 6 that I've known since kindergarten. And my parents are right. If you give me 7 days a week free, I'll fill them with CCAs and friends and work and then complain about being too stressed.

But come to think of it, I'll still probably end up joining the alumni anyways. Haha. Because the ACJC choir is where my family is. And even if friends are closer than family, I feel a need to be there and that something is missing if I'm not.

Yes, I am quite a confused person. XD